Clarity

I am Danielle, writing about Dawn, who is a character who wants to craft her own colorful life story as if a semi-fictional Based-On-A-True-Story (while it is actually her exact life story) starring her character named "Sheila Ray." I narrate Dawn, relate her thoughts as I am omniscient-author. I relate Dawns actions through direct, 3rd per/past tense narrative and her thoughts by same, her most pointy opinions 1st per/present tense through Dawn's journaling.
I animate Dawn and her character, Sheila, 3rd per/past tense as narrated by Dawn. I am writing about Dawn as she writes about Sheila, the heart of the story (my story). The whole purpose is to take focus off of Danielle/me and the highly personal writing I want to do, so as to make the book both more publishable and more readable, as well as to protect myself from the wrath of the guilty and the vulnerability of an author with her heart for sale in a bookstore for $19.99.

I have yet to untangle these relationships, keep my considerable writing efforts intact, as they are basically good material. I just have to sort out who says what when. Which person? Which tense? Most of all I have to avoid confusing the reader. Dawn/me/main character #1 has actions, relationships, thoughts, dialogue, circumstances, feelings, opinions... Sheila/me/main character #2 has same, Aim at Sheila's actions, surroundings, people, dialogue while Dawn voices opinions, posts, poems, essays, ambitions, thoughts of her own through her Journal and my direct narration. I can tell her thoughts to the reader. She will bear the burden of having my probably unpopular or semi-inappropriate ideas, and the burden of having so many, so often, and of being a habitual thinker, who thinks about everything... I'll try to avoid making Dawn boring! My story must be easily decipherable, interesting, introduce the two main players, Dawn and Sheila: First, there is Dawn's life. Dawn takes the heat for me, Danielle/me. She's opinionated, oblique, a loner, almost eccentric, middle-aged. Dawn creates SHEILA. Sheila's tale and Dawn's tale tell my story, Sheila/me aged birth thru 40-ish, Dawn/me present time looking back, living current events, aged 40-ish. I want this tale done and done well by my birthday Jan 3 2013.


PETE AND REPEAT
WERE SITTING ON A BRANCH
PETE FELL OFF AND WHO WAS LEFT?

I am Sheila D. Ivy. I use a pen-name. I write about Dawn and Sheila Ray, my two main characters. Dawn's story is my story, post 40yrs old, the would-be writer. She only uses one name. Dawn's writes about herself by telling the story of character Sheila Ray. Dawn uses a pen-name. Sheila Ray (always both names) and Dawn represent me. Dawn = current self. Sheila Ray = past self. Both names recognizable only by those who knew me well, those who I most want to send my story to, perhaps themselves reasons why I write...


WHY WRITE THIS NOW?
I'll turn 45. I want to discard my mid-life crisis, (is this IT? HALF my lifespan is gone? Some things no longer possible?), then take up comfortably with new plans, new dreams, a modified future. I want to put my autobio to bed, so to speak, and look ahead without flinching to see what other dreams I may dream even with the certain realities of my situation. I will dream possible dreams, practical ones, then I will try to make them happen.